General DiscussionAyy lmao

Get educated plebs

PEPE on Dotabuff forums?
We 4chan now.
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@magnus
i think i'm around the point where i can't be helped or i've already crossed it
it's just a whole different state of mind. when i was sad before and someone would love me, i would probably love her back, i'd be really caring and sad at the same time that i'm a horrible partner and that i can't do more for her

now it's something different
i don't think i'm able to befriend or love anyone anymore. now, i see relationships as something useless, unimportant. something that people should be ashamed for. it might be hatred though i don't feel that directly since i'm already used to supressing every emotion inside. just bitterness about everything i guess

I wish I knew. I have to develop and think of all possible social interactions again and how to behave in them. i came to realise that it's not that easy to respond without giving any signals like "fuck you" or "let's be friends" and i don't think that i want to deal with people in real life anymore. it's just a whole different world that would need a lot of effort to understand. and above all that, it sucks. everyone's fake, able and often willing to twist their morals and ethics depending on who are they aimed on. i don't want to waste more time about thinking if the person is really my friend or just faking it and talking crap about me behind my back.

or my whole perception of this is entirely wrong but i don't care anymore

i have to decide what i want in first place

well,Arin,I am just shocked! the truth has been spoken..

@79
do u (we) want to play in some faceit leagues/tournaments?

@Arin
not communicating = limiting yourself, there's plenty of opportunities around you - you just gotta be there.

I'm somewhat anti-social, but I still make the effort to maintain good relations with regardless of my personal predisposition, because that's how it works.

You're telling yourself (i.e rationalizing) that relationships/communcation/etc is "useless, unimportant. something that people should be ashamed for" because you can't face and admit the fact that you are shit at it, just deal with it

idk what comparison I can make
writing walls of text to 'justufy' it is the opposite of being constructive, just like saying "my team mates are shit" instead of "what I can do to get better"

i don't have dumb friends.
i have dumb ideas to lose games by intention.

~mekarazium

@Magnus how about "why am I not playing this game for three months already, but still hanging on dotabuff forums" :D

anime girls are real

@mokujin
what u say is not necesarilly true for everyone

"If you play Dota are not very social, you can't be" - Arteezy

Havoc is a true leader

i cant open the video since wifi here sucks, but this itembuild on phoenix is goddamn weird

if you mean "goddamn weird" then no; if you talk about "sucks" part, then yeah sure

hentai irl

ayy lmao

5 Man carry, love it

@79
do u (we) want to play in some faceit leagues/tournaments?

I started to legitemately think Spectre is unbeatable in pubs.

I'm honestly unsure if I should try to share my mental status quo to everyone. But I honestly don't have friends here - at least someone who can understand me anyway.